lately i've been having crazy dreams. not crazy in the sense that they are tripped out, but i wake up and i say "why would i dream that" it's frustrating because it's things i'm trying to forget about but my brain subconsciously brings it back up and i don't enjoy it at all. but normally i sleep on my stomach and both times i had strange dreams i woke up on my back which never happens maybe it has something to do with the way i'm sleeping, or i'm thrashing about in my sleep, who knows. but the first string of these dreams i woke up in fright which also never happens because i never have dreams that are so frightening i wake up out of breathe, but it happened. i can't even say what it was about right now but it was scary. i'm trying to think of the scariest dream i have ever had and i think it was when i was about nine. haha it's funny because whenever something takes place in my past and i have no idea how old i am i always assume i was nine, i guess nine was a big year for me or something. but i had a dream there were some huge giant creatures attacking my house and they made these horrible noises, so i was hiding. it's been a long time since this dream so that's all i really remember. but then i was somewhere about 6 years later and i heard that horrible noise or something similar and i just about jumped out of my skin, i was sooo scared. most of my dreams are very vivid as i'm sure everyones are but sometimes i have dreams about things that happened the same night i went to bed and when i wake up i don't know which parts are real and what i just dreamed up. just goes to show i live in my own little world. hehe.

but something i haven't had in a long time is deja vu. i love them it's one of my favorite things. i get excited when it happens because it's a feeling almost like freefalling. i miss it. k now i'm off to eat butterfingers and ice cream because i can.